I have never meditated before. Well, I have, but those have been one-time things, tied into different kinds of workshops. But around the new year, I felt like I wasn’t feeling good enough in my life. I understood that there were aspects I couldn’t control and that those brought difficulties in my life creating feelings of desperation and inadequacy. And why did I allow those things to affect me like that? I decided to accept that I can’t control certain things, but what I can control is the way I react to those things. Yes, the most basic positive quote we see around in social media.
So, with this realization, I decided to try some new things.
I decided to learn how to meditate. I knew the basics, but finding the time for it would be difficult.
Also, I had read many times before about the law of attraction, so I decided to combine something from both into my life. I decided to meditate every day at least 5 minutes, and write down every morning (or as often as I remember) these things:
1. The affirmation of the day
This can be a real affirmation or it can be just a positive sentence
2. Goals of the day:
Is there anything specific I want to achieve that day?
3. How do I want to feel that day:
Do I want to feel creative and relaxed, determined and confident, or maybe powerful and calm?
I just make a short, simple list of the things I’m grateful. Like: Kids, home, husband, food, my new shoes, writing community, my passion for writing, a day job that keeps me financially secured, and so on.
I don’t believe everything I’ve heard about the law of attraction, but I do believe that what we say to ourselves that we are, then that’s what we are. If you say to yourself things like: I’m fat, I’m stupid, I’m not good enough, I’m a failure… then you most certainly are, because your subconscious mind believes it all. And to change the negative self-image and the negative way to approach problems, we have to convince our subconscious mind to believe that we are powerful and confident and that we can overcome any obstacle the world brings to us. So instead, we need to say to ourselves: I’m happy, I’m enjoying my life, I’m wealthy, I’m brave, I’m beautiful, I’m powerful, I’m grateful, I’m confident, I’m successful.
And the key is, we shouldn’t say I will be successful but in the present tense; I am successful. Lie to yourself. Fake it until you make it. Repeat those things to yourself for as long as your subconscious gets it. If all your subconscious mind has heard for your most adult life were negative ways to look at yourself and your capabilities, it is going to take some time to convince it otherwise. So, this needs some more time than a couple of weeks.
Mediation feels easy. Sure, my mind travels during the sessions occasionally, but I’ve read that it’s normal for beginners and that one can see the first real benefit from meditation only after few months.
I have no idea how this will affect me or will it change my life in any way, but I will try and I will let you know how it went in a few weeks.
Maybe this is the first step to knowing myself better.